17 for a month, and nothings happened

sooo.... i walk into ag today and im talkin 2 sarah and then hurless walks in and hes wearing the same color sweatshirt as me and he sits down and automatically takes off his sweathirt and hes wearin the same damn tshirt as me too. WTF!


otherwise today... dull. its a monday and its fucking freezing outside and i REALLY dont wanna go to work sooo... yea. lol.

the band concert yesterday was super fucking boring and all we did was mess around on hajos phone the whole time. yea. funny shit.

and then i reeeaaaaalllllyyyyy miss david but hes a half hr away and hes got finals all the this week so i cant rly talk 2 him when hes at school so it sucks.

and next week i have finals which sucks :(

but after next wed im free till jan 10th! :D





and shit. i 4got my work uniform at home. fml.

my first week being 17

still no ag sales results. :P

getta go see david 2marrow, hes comin 2 see me 2nite at work.

deer season starts 2day.

im slowly getting my math assignments done.


dad mite be comin home 2day.

havent had 2 deal wit mom or seth all week. its been awesome.


NH is being a dick more then ever now. hes jealous.

bens back. my spanish grades happy bout that. lol






me and davids song(s)

Livin' Our Love Song - Jason Michael Carrol
Country Boy's World - Jason Aldean
You're the Love I Wanna Be In - Jason Aldean



hes my world. if i lost him idk what id do. i love him so much.

Pretty sure this should b our senior song. JASON ALDEAN - TATTOOS ON THIS TOWN

There's still black marks on that county road,
where we drag raced our pick ups, and mustangs,
And weathered on the summer rain.
And to this day up on that overpass,
even underneath the new paint,
you can still see,
"Allie will you marry me?"

Take a ride, look around
There ain't no doubt

It sure left it's mark on us,
we sure left our mark on it,
We let the world know we were here,
with everything we did,
We laid alota memories down,
like tattoo's on this town.

There's still a rope burn on the old branch,
that hangs over the river,
I still got the scars,
From swinging out a little too far,
There ain't a corner of this hallowed ground,
that we ain't laughed or cried on,
it's where we loved,
Lived and learned alota stuff,
It's everything we're made of,

It sure left it's mark on us, we sure left our mark on it
We let the world know we were here, with everything we did
We laid alota memories down, like tattoo's on this town
Like tattoo's on this town

Everywhere, it's where we are
It gets me right, in my heart


It sure left it's mark on us,
we sure left our mark on it,
We let the world know we were here,
with everything we did,
We laid alota memories down,
But we'll always be hangin' round,
like tattoo's on this town,
Like tattoo's on this town.

Hello World - Lady A

(this was my fav song at the concert for national convention this year. im glad i got to hear it.)

Traffic crawls, cell phone calls
Talk radio screams at me through my tinted window I see
A little girl, rust red minivan, she’s got chocolate on her face
Got little hands and she waves at me
Yeah, she smiles at me

Chorus
Well, hello world
How you been
Good to see you, my old friend
Sometimes I feel cold as steel
Broken like I’m never gonna heal
And I see a light, a little hope in a little girl
Hello world

Every day I drive by a little white church
It’s got these little white crosses
Like angels in the yard
Maybe I should stop on in, say a prayer
Maybe talk to God like he is there
Oh, I know he’s there
Yeah, I know he’s there

Well hello world
How you been
Good to see you, my old friend
Sometimes I feel as cold as steel
And broken like I’m never gonna heal
And I see a light, a little grace, a little faith unfurls
Well hello world

Sometimes I forget what living’s for
And I hear my life through my front door
And I breathe it in
Oh, I’m home again
And I see my wife
Little boy and little girl
Hello world
Hello world

Well the empty disappears
I remember why I’m here
Just surrender and believe
I fall down on my knees
Well hello world
Hello world
Hello world

i. am in. my third studyhall. of. the. day.

to break the school code, which is an infringement of the 2nd amendment anyway, THIS IS FUCKING GAY!!!!!!!!!!! i dont need 2 SH, why am i in a 3rd? wtf! and for the record, i could be working rite now! or getting my check at least. :] but noooooo i have nothing to do. for the 2nd hr strait. fucking gay. so i busted out the ipod. i dont fuckin care if its against school policy., i love bending hte rules n breakin the law! lol. man i wish i was..... well....not here for sure, being in mizzou would be cool. being in MO with the boy would be amazing. but he used 2 swear he would never go there with me n my fam.... i wonder if hed go there with just me? :] man i miss him sooooo much. and hes not even mine 2 miss. it sucks, every time i get a chance somehtin happens and im either not there, have 2 go sumwhere, or chicken out. mostly, the latter of the 3, but still. i wish i could tell him, then maybe everything would be better. idk.

so saturday nite i got home from kelsies bout 10 pm and then i got on the computer for a bit so it was bout 1030ish when i got to the point that i wanted 2 chilln my rm so i went upstairs n i hear this noise, and it didnt register in my head what it was til i heard it a second time when i was headin back down stiars, cept this time it was closer. so i threw open the window to see wtf it was and IT WAS A FUCKING TRUCK . not just anyones truck, someone i know pretty damn well. just drivin through a field at 1030 at nite wiit no lights. what. the. fuck. who the hell does that? and then they threw on their lights to get on the rd then turned em off again to drive past my place. then they got the hell outte there and didnt come back. but im pretty sure i know who it was. and its pretty stupid if ur like creepin on my house cuz theres this thing called a phone, and if ya wanna talk 2 me then u can just call n be all like hey whats up? if its who i think it was, ill answer 4 u. doesnt matter what time.

and i just want u 2 know, im always here 4 u, whether u want me 2 b or not.

studyhall numbah dos

soooo bored n SH...... time 4 a recap!

me + chad = over. done. finite. zip. zero. nill. none. gone.

me and the boy.... [the boy thats always been THE BOY, not the other pansys ive liked over the years but THE BOY, the one my friends insist i get back wit altho im way 2 chicken, ya THAT boy] ... well were, needless to say, well we make eye contact at least. thats more then last year. :] and hell return my calls when i need help. thats a plus. i just need 2 get sum guts and finally ask him.


thats gonna happen....... well need to read sum more josh shipp b4 it happens

g/w scrimmage 2010

well everyone survived. i didnt see anybody melt in the rainy varsity game so its all good. hung wit lindsey, cassie, brittany, jon, ferbie, andy and a ton of 7th graders. it was crazy. and the 2 ppl i REALLY wanted 2 see couldnt make it and didnt want 2 go. :( o well. in 2 weeks theres teh 1st home game against chicago. and theres bound 2 b a few soccer games and tennis meets b4 then :] i cant wait to see what happens this year. hopefully its amazing. :] <3

1st day of jr year. :o

weeeeeell. i love my 1st hr. and my 4th hr. and....6th hr. the rest.... meh. i do like getting out after 6th hr. can i quit band and keep my early release???? decisions are sooooo hard. :(

to liz - ill get the guts 2 talk 2 him sometime rlly soon. i promise

to n - well, i think 1st hr is gonna be fun :]

to the weather guy - LEARN TO PREDICT THE FUCKIN RAIN!!!!!

summer 2010

JUNE; partied wit lauren & the crew [16!], worked my ass off, went to state convention [ferby now calls me hurless. great] went river rafting wit the officers, was in the fathers day parade, hung wit katie

JULY; went 2 minnesota 4 work and got treated like shit, quit my job, met 100+ awesome ag alumni members, hung wit jess, washed some trucks, took care of sum ducks, met some 20 kids from the baltic sea area, partied wit bmahl & crew [16!]

AUGUST; drove seth 2 band, partied at kelsis awesome luau [16!], started workin on horse judging stuff wit katie, started workin on the scrapbook, have almost died at tennis practice, NH is 17 now [geez hes old. jk], meghanne's 16th is 2marrow. hopefully i can go.

NO LIZ, i havent called him yet! :P

school on tuesday, cant wait 2 see whos im my classes ;]

MW: so ur bf hurless.... KC: hes not my bf. Were not dating MW: well ur future husband hurless... KC: sure...

LM: i had a dream last nite. U were back in the office & nick was in the room & every 1 went 2 the computer lab & keener goes shes back there&he leaves. So then u come out & go come here & u and nick kiss and then u start dating again.

and i was like karla would so do something like that!

KC: i wish that would happen

It Ain't Easy Bein' Me - Blake Shelton

There ought to be a town out there,
Named for how I feel.
Yeah I could be the mayor down there,
And say welcome to Sorryville.
It won't be on a map nowhere,
You might say that it doesn't exist,
But if you make enough wrong turns
It'd be hard to miss.

There ought to be a bridge somewhere
They could dedicate to me.
I'd probably come to the ceremony
With a can of gasoline;
Walk on over to the other side
And there I'd light a match
And sit and stare through the smoke and the flames
Wonderin' how I'm ever gonna get back.

Why do I do the things I do?
Was I born this way? Am I a self-made fool?
I shoot the lights and curse the dark;
I need your love but I break your heart;
And I know the words that'll bring you back,
But I don't say nothin' as I watch you pack.
I had to work to be the jerk I've come to be;
It ain't easy bein' me.

Ought to be a side show act for freaks like me;
Yeah I could be the star of the show
With my name on the marquee.
In a room with a big red button that says "Do Not Touch,"
And twice a day I'd mash it down
And you could watch me self-destruct.

Why do I do the things I do?
Was I born this way? Am I a self-made fool?
I shoot the lights and curse the dark;
I need your love but I break your heart;
And I know the words that'll bring you back,
But I don't say nothin' as I watch you pack.
I had to work to be the jerk I've come to be;
It ain't easy bein' me.

quotes day! :]

"Not all men are created equal, only the finest are involved in agriculture"

"It's hard bein' a cowboy. If a guy gets run over by a truck, his buddies feel sorry for him, but if a cowboy gets run over by a horse his buddies laugh"

"Some days ya just can't get it into second no matter how much ya double-clutch it"-Crazy Cooter

"its simple, its mind over matter. When your outta your mind, it don't matter"

"an apple a day will keep anyone away if you throw it hard enough" Steven Colbert

Luke: You ARE aware this road goes to Dry Creek?
Bo: I AM aware this road goes to Dry Creek.
Luke: You are aware there's no way to get OVER Dry Creek?
Bo: [Stepping down on the gas, grinning] I am aware there is ONE WAY to get over Dry Creek!
Luke: Oh, Lordy! We're gonna die!

Eminem - Not Afraid

Geneseo FFA - Welcome

Geneseo FFA - Welcome

Scotty Doesn't Know

Gary Allan - Long Summer Days

Up On the Ridge -- Dierks Bentley

interesting weekend so far. :)

soooo. hang wit katie friday. at school. til 6. not rly supervised. altho nelson said he that NH still likes me he just doesnt want shit from everyone. which it is understandable. and he also said that a certain person i want so desperately to get in a car crash on the way 2 work can burn in h***. that was cool. so i obviously needed a ride home. cuz i dont have a job and im broke. again. so i called nick. he said he was going 2 johns. call dad half hr l8r. dad said nick just went by the house rite b4 i called.

so thx nick, for lying or being a chicken or hating me (& i still dunno why u do. if u do) and not giving me a ride home, woulda took ya 5 min 2 come 2 the HS &get me. o well. i dont hold it against ya.

but seriously, thanks for answering the first time i called and not hanging up on me. even tho u didnt give me a ride, it means something. to me it basically means u either dont know my # or u dont wish i was dead. :) dunno wut it means 2 u. yet.

soo horse judging 2day was rly fun even tho there were 6 ppl competing. i was basically in charge of holding the horses and rolling legs wraps but hey, it was doing something. better then being at home & listening 2 mom n dad bitch at each other. again.

and now im babysitting. as usual. and i gotta do chores still. o joy. :)

misguided monday

go down 2 stahls room during 1st, stay in the office, work on stuff, getting ready 2 go, go in2 the room 2 get stahl 2 sign me bak, rite when i go in i hear it: "hey hurless, hurless" ...and it in that tone that u just know there talkin bout u. u know the kind, the one where rite when they say something, even tho they dont actually say it, it means 'hey look whos here'. i dont like that tone. amusing as it is, when u totally ignore it, and dont look at the ppl talking, as u casually make ur way across the room, get wut u need, and go back 2 where u came from, u cant help but wonder; why r they sayin that bout ME, rite NOW? i mean, its rite after ive been told by bout 5 ppl that hurless hates my guts and everytime i see him i get the "look". that look that just makes u feel like a piece of dirt and u wanna drop dead. yeah, that look. its just my favorite look outta all of them. and it just makes me feel WONDERFUL. all i have 2 say is wut did i do 2 deserve this? HE broke up wit ME. so why am i the one that has 2 get the bad end of the deal? why am i the one that feels like shit? just answer me one question - why?

ok seriously? #2

this is sooooooo fucking GAY. ull talk 2 lindsey, SMILE at her, and wont even say a damn thin 2 me? wut am i, a fuckin piece of dirt? im so below u that u cant even say hi 2 me? wth? u r the ONLY one that treat me like that. and wut hav i done 2 u? absolutely nothin. nothing that i know of. if there is something PLEASE tell me. then maybe u can actually let me know why the hell u treat me this way cuz this is TOTAL bs. ur the one that broke up wit me. so why am i getting the shitty end of the deal? i dont hate u. u did wut u did. its in the PAST. let it stay in the past. its long gone for me.

Im reading harry potter1. Theres not connection at all. Yet i cant help thinkin bout the boy....

*happy dance*

THE 2010-2011 GENESEO FFA OFFICER TEAM

PRESIDENT: Trent Taber
VICE PRESIDENT: Lauren Lyman
SECRETARY: Hayley Abell
REPORTER: Karla Chrisop
TREASURER: Mark Snodgrass
SENTINEL: Landon Heaton
HISTORIAN: Jake Miller

this year is gonna be great. cant wait 2 see wut happens when everyone that was there finds out. :]

chem convo K&A&L

A - "yea we had a pretty interesting convo at lunch 2day"
K - "bout wut?"
A - "not telling"
K - "why not?"
A - "cuz"
K- "cuz why? its about me?"
*A nods*
K - "tell me. if its bout me then tell me"
A - "we were talking about prom. we asked nick if he was gonna go and he said no. so we said he should take you next year."
*K puts head on desk*
A - "yea and john's gonna take hayley and keener's gonna take christina"
K - "wow...."

Mr.o - that was the bell. SSR. read.

*whole class reads*
*alarm beeps*

K - "hey adam. adam."
A - "yea"
k - "did nicks face get all red when you guys said that stuff?"
a - "yea. why?"
K - "i saw him after 5th and his...."
A - "....face was still red."
K - "yea.i was just wondering if that was why."
A - "yea."

L - "do u like him or something? you tlak about him all the time."
K - *smiles* "shut up."
A - "you still like him dont you?"
K - "shut up."
L - *gets up* "why dont you go out with him...again. you talk about him all the time. you gotta like him."
K - "cuz... idk"
A - "thank you for being on my side. they should date. cuz she likes nick & nick likes her."
L - "i know rite?"
K - "hey i never said i wasn't on your side. its just that..."
A - "... nick. we need to get him to want to go out wit you."
K - "yea we do. but have fun wit that."

mr.o - "ok if you havent finished the lab....."

---------------------------------
so A knows. & we kinda sorta have a plan. hey, maybe havin A on my side will make things.... ok.

:D

so last nite he called me back ! :)


:) :) :) :) :) :) :D



thats all :)

long story short

his truck got messed wit and we both got pissed, for different reasons, and 2day i know who did it & im gonna call him later, after he gets off of work. if he went to work....

wut the.....

so 2days update from 7th hr..... A told me that N says im a stalker cuz i know where A lives. A only lives a mile away, a family friend farms the ground around his house, my dad did a job there for said family friend, AND N himself told me A lives there last year when he gave me a ride home from school while we were dating. shows how much he knows bout me and my "stalking".


rite now im wit court - why does he hate me so much?

ok seriously?

heres the scene: saturday nite - 830pm, im sittin on the couch watching my fav TV show, and all of a sudden theres a really loud noise. guess wut that was? a certian neighbor's truck. it wasnt so bad the first time, but when he comes back 5min later and its even louder (i was amazed it could even happen), thats when it got pretty annoying.

and he says he dont like me & im crazy and im a bitch, etc.

SO WHY THE HELL IS HE "SHOWING OFF" IN FRONT OF MY HOUSE? answer me that. why would you show off to someone you hate? waste of time if you ask me.

and you call yourself a friend?

so thanks to A giving me updates almost everyday, mainly when its good info, i now know wut N thinks of me. at least wut he says to his friends. - "do you think she still likes you? "no. why would i care anyway?" (TOTAL DENIAL! WTF) and then he apparantly said im a crazy bitch and a bunch of other stuff that A wouldnt tell me. which means its NOT GOOD. but ya know wut? if he wants to call me a bitch - ill show him one.

so.... now what? #2

well after what seems like 50 calls, he finally called me back AND i answered. apparantly he doesnt have my number anymore. psh. like he could forget me? lol. so i ask him bout A & J... he says uh... i... dont like you anymore. but for some reason... prolly just wishful thinking, but he sounded kinda nervouse/ sad-ish/ lying/ idk i just got wishful thinking going on here i guess. :( o well.... theres still that cute red-head :)

pancake breakfast (valentines day 2010)

so N was there. and lindsey came over sat so she came wit me. and me & lindsey were talking to jake and jake kept making fun of me & N cuz he swears N likes me & its kinda obvious i like him. lol. and me and N were pretty pink/red by the end of the day. lol. but during the day N would look at me and i was like !! :) so after the b-fast i called him & then took lindsey home & then got home & was watchin the race cuz if just started again and i fell asleep on the couch watchin TV and while i was asleep N called me bak and I MISSED IT! so mad @ myself. so i finished watching the race cuz there was only like 20 laps left and btw dale jr went from 15th to 10th in one lap and then from 10th to 2nd in two more to FINISH 2ND IN THE FIRST RACE OF THE SEASON! and he also led 4 laps. this season is gonna be good, i can feel it :) but after the race i called him back (@7pm) and he didnt call back :( guess i getta try again today.....maybe

so.... now what?

"at lunch today landon started talking bout you and nick got really defensive and was like 'dont talk about her' and by the way me landon and keener all think that hurless still likes you."

:)

yes i'm a dale jr fan. yes im super excited bout daytona qualifying &the bud shootout 2marrow. no i am not gonna stare at my TV counting down the hrs. yes i think that the only good thing bout valentines day is the DAYTONA 500!!! yes i will attempt to work @ the livestock competition. yes my truck is fixed &yes i am dr...ivin there, but NO i will not give anyone a ride. if ur going ill see ya there if not, ur loss...

Does anyone know Wut sawyer tells kate before he kisses her and then jumps outta the helicopter? #Fb

The fear of losing someone she loves is strong enough to change her mind... #Fb

the joys and discomforts of agricultural life

so... SAE worknite..... it was interesting to say the least. the last person i wanted to be there was there. well, one of the last ppl. there are ones lower on the list then him, but not many.

saw the boy on the way in :) highlight of my day and i didnt even see him, just his truck. but even that makes me smile :) today was a pretty damn good day, even if i am runnin off about 2 hrs sleep. at least im gonna fall asleep thinkin happy thoughts bout the boy :)

You cried for your friend not for yourself. Theres a big difference.

Watchin spirit. Bestanamatedmovieever. :)

OMG THE NEW SEASON OF 24 IS GONNA BE AWESOME!!! not that it wasnt already... :)

music To the boy... All i ever wanted -chuck wicks

Missing him way too much

Thinkin bout him... But Wuts the use when hes pissed at me?

Pranked the boy again. Then shy went and called him and bitched out as "jeremy my bf" and i called him to explain...Hes pissed at me and im not gonna keep tryin

Pranked the boy 2day. It was priceless :) THANKS SHY!