Missing this...

Missing the summer days spent out in the middle of nowhere when all that mattered was how fast u wanted to ride ur 4wheeler..... I miss us all being friends and not having any struggles. I miss being able to see my best friends whenever i wanted and not having anyone be mad about it! Ugh! Most of all I miss seeing this guy....

He's the best of the best and I'm sick of only seeing him for a few minutes a few times a year. I wanna see him on a regular basis and be able to talk to him bout my problems and know that he's not gonna judge me at all....he's been there n he knows what it's like... And he don't want me to go thru it again. He's my very best friend but seems like best friends aren't there much in my life. And apparently they don't think they need to talk to me unless it's on their schedule. And it's Rlly pissing me off. 😞💔👎😠

All I want....is just to see you smile...😊

Gosh everything is just so messed up right now.... Why can't I go back to having a boring sheltered life? One where nobody talked to me and I didn't have a ton of people liking me all at once? 

R... Idk what he wants. One sec he's all sweet and just trying to get me to laugh... He says I don't laugh enough. And then there's the other side of him that can flip a convo bout running into something completely sexual in less then 5 texts. And I never know what side of him I'll get at any time of day. 

B.... Is a diff story. Told me everything n then doesn't talk to me but told me why he don't talk to me and I can understand that. But then I want to talk to him and see him so much! He's my best friend, but I don't want to be annoying to him either but I really do love being able to talk to him and he won't judge. And he'll  (hopefully) keep my secrets. Plus, I'll admit it, he gives the best hugs. 

The other B....he's more done then burnt toast. Screw him and the train he rolled in on. Thinking he can use the "I Rlly like you" card for a reason to be an ass to me? Not gonna happen buddy. I'm done. 

Otherwise. Works going good, and just trying to get everything situated in my life so I'm just not so confused anymore   

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