quotes that get me thinking

• ~it doesn't matter how strong we are. trauma always leaves a scar. it follows us home. it changes our lives. trauma messes everybody up. but maybe we need trauma. maybe we need to get a little messed up. maybe that's what helps us see the light.
• ~your true love is someone that has always been there
• ~you can settle for an ordinary life. but i dare you to better
• ~my whole life I've been nothing. i ain't going back to that
• ~if i knew it was going to hurt this bad....i would have still told you i loved you. because its the TRUTH
• ~because of you i laugh a lot harder, cry a lot less and smile a lot more
• ~when life gave me a hundred reasons to cry, you gave me a hundred reasons to smile
• ~most boys aren't worth crying over and those who are will never make you cry
• ~its all good. really break her heart. let her down. because you care about her... right?
• ~missing you isn't what hurts. its knowing that i once had you that kills me
• ~i don't hate her. i just wont be sad when she dies
• ~to put it nicely i hope you choke and no one will be around to help
• ~if you only knew what your horse thought of you
• ~hey...ill still ride in your car no matter how many time i almost die
• ~forget the risk that the fall. if its meant to be its worth it all
• ~do i get bonus points if i act like i care?
• ~take chances because you never know how great something could turn out to be
• ~school bores me. the bell rings and the cattle move every 45minutes. i like learning, just not in that way. so i found a better one
• ~this tittle doesn't just represent me. it represents all the rejects. all the crazy people. all those who've been tole it couldn't be done
• ~life's simple. make choices. don't look back
• ~putting a wall around your heart wont keep you safe

this boy NEVER makes any sense....

ok so...


apparantly hurless was forced into our relationship (by matt) and that he hated it and it was the worst decision he ever made and he regrets ever going out wit me and blah...blah...blah...


my point is:

if he hated ever going out wit me then
WHY DID HE?
WHY DID HE WAIT 4 MONTHS TO BREAK UP WIT ME?
WHY DID HE KISS ME?
WHY DID HE INVITE ME OVER TO KYLES? (altho that mite have been matt & kyle)
&&WHY DID HE LOOK SO SAD ON THE FIRST DAY BAK FROM SPRING BREAK?

just tell me that. it makes NO sense. theres no reason that he did all that stuff? i just dont get it. i just dont get him.


BUT ON THE BRIGHT SIDE....


he said he doesnt hate me... and all the stuff he says.....is 2 piss me off cuz i pisssed him off....

like that makes any sense too......


idk. hurless is just SOOOO confusing! lol

stupid...stupid...stupid!

stupid tennis - i didnt get to talk to alex after school
stupid hurless - he didnt ride the
stupid bus - tonight and i need help on my
stupid math homework - that i dont get how to do at all

AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF, MY

stupid cell phone & my
stupid iPod both have dead batteries.

so basically it was a really
stupid day!

well today was...interesting. to say the least

hurless.....well......he's just hurley. lol. no harsh words today. no nice ones either. but he DID let me borrow his sharpie.....one nice thing done today, i guess. i didnt say anything mean to him or anything. altho i did put a sticker on his hat.... but other than that i didnt do anything. point 4 me! lol. well....its a start towards friendship.....hopefully

a weekend of awesomeness

so i went to lindseys (now known as Laundry) house on friday after school. RLY fun. played guitar hero for the first time ever - im ok on the guitar.... but im AMAZING on the drums. ousted chuck on them & hes been playing for months. :D lol. we got bored & walked around town& hung out wit garrett & overall it was a rly fun weekend.

and to top it off i talked to alex most of the nite friday. SUPER HAPPY bout that. :) can't wait to see wut happens next weekend.


WUTS HAPPENING THIS WEEK:

monday (2day) - nothing
tuesday - nothing
wednesday - boredom (aka NOTHING)
thursday - out 1 hr. early. band assessment after school. FFA chapter banquet @ 7pm
friday - nothin rly. enjoy the weekend
saturday - nutin
sunday - watchin NASCAR

light @ the end of the tunnel

he got told i liked him & he smiled...and then nothing was awkward between us later today. but idk if he believed the person who told him.....but if he DID.....then he knows.....&& i dont have to stutter my way throught trying to tell him.....dont ya just love the way fate works out?

sound of madness BY shinedown

Yeah, I get it,
You're an outcast.
Always under attack.
Always coming in last,
Bringing up the past.
No one owes you anything.
I think you need a shotgun blast,
A kick in the ass,
So paranoid. . .
Watch your back!!

Oh my, here we go...

Another lose cannon gone bi-polar
Slipped down, couldn't get much lower.
Quicksand's got no sense of humor.
I'm still laughing like hell.
You think that the cryin to me,
Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe,
You've been infected by a social disease.
Well, then take your medicine.

[Chorus]
I created the Sound of Madness.
Wrote the book on pain.
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night.
You can sleep with a gun.
When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?

I'm so sick of this tombstone mentality,
If there's an afterlife,
Then it'll set you free.
But I'm not gonna part the seas
You're a self-fulfilling prophecy.
You think that cryin to me,
Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe,
You've been infected by a social disease.
Well, then take your medicine.

[Chorus]
I created the Sound of Madness.
Wrote the book on pain.
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night.
You can sleep with a gun.
When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?

I created the Sound of Madness.
Wrote the book on pain.
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night.
You can sleep with a gun.
When you gonna wake up...
When you gonna wake up and fight...

I created the Sound of Madness.
Wrote the book on pain.
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night.
You can sleep with a gun.
When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?

When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself? [x3]

bad 4 me

he says he hates me SOMEWHAT....then flirts wit me.....damn this boy is confusing!

so much for love....

well....me & nick are over.....idk 4 how long but rite now were over wit....its so sad......not much else to say....... :(