Up On the Ridge -- Dierks Bentley

interesting weekend so far. :)

soooo. hang wit katie friday. at school. til 6. not rly supervised. altho nelson said he that NH still likes me he just doesnt want shit from everyone. which it is understandable. and he also said that a certain person i want so desperately to get in a car crash on the way 2 work can burn in h***. that was cool. so i obviously needed a ride home. cuz i dont have a job and im broke. again. so i called nick. he said he was going 2 johns. call dad half hr l8r. dad said nick just went by the house rite b4 i called.

so thx nick, for lying or being a chicken or hating me (& i still dunno why u do. if u do) and not giving me a ride home, woulda took ya 5 min 2 come 2 the HS &get me. o well. i dont hold it against ya.

but seriously, thanks for answering the first time i called and not hanging up on me. even tho u didnt give me a ride, it means something. to me it basically means u either dont know my # or u dont wish i was dead. :) dunno wut it means 2 u. yet.

soo horse judging 2day was rly fun even tho there were 6 ppl competing. i was basically in charge of holding the horses and rolling legs wraps but hey, it was doing something. better then being at home & listening 2 mom n dad bitch at each other. again.

and now im babysitting. as usual. and i gotta do chores still. o joy. :)

misguided monday

go down 2 stahls room during 1st, stay in the office, work on stuff, getting ready 2 go, go in2 the room 2 get stahl 2 sign me bak, rite when i go in i hear it: "hey hurless, hurless" ...and it in that tone that u just know there talkin bout u. u know the kind, the one where rite when they say something, even tho they dont actually say it, it means 'hey look whos here'. i dont like that tone. amusing as it is, when u totally ignore it, and dont look at the ppl talking, as u casually make ur way across the room, get wut u need, and go back 2 where u came from, u cant help but wonder; why r they sayin that bout ME, rite NOW? i mean, its rite after ive been told by bout 5 ppl that hurless hates my guts and everytime i see him i get the "look". that look that just makes u feel like a piece of dirt and u wanna drop dead. yeah, that look. its just my favorite look outta all of them. and it just makes me feel WONDERFUL. all i have 2 say is wut did i do 2 deserve this? HE broke up wit ME. so why am i the one that has 2 get the bad end of the deal? why am i the one that feels like shit? just answer me one question - why?

ok seriously? #2

this is sooooooo fucking GAY. ull talk 2 lindsey, SMILE at her, and wont even say a damn thin 2 me? wut am i, a fuckin piece of dirt? im so below u that u cant even say hi 2 me? wth? u r the ONLY one that treat me like that. and wut hav i done 2 u? absolutely nothin. nothing that i know of. if there is something PLEASE tell me. then maybe u can actually let me know why the hell u treat me this way cuz this is TOTAL bs. ur the one that broke up wit me. so why am i getting the shitty end of the deal? i dont hate u. u did wut u did. its in the PAST. let it stay in the past. its long gone for me.