my life: as run (unfortunately) by my parents.

11 days left

2011-05-18T12:29:00.001-05:00

Sooooo 11 days left. I already dont wanna do any homework. I have a stupid spanish final friday. Altho we watched finding nemo today so it wasnt that bad. Davie being a lucky. Duck is done with school already. Hurley leaves friday. Idk if im happy bout that or annoyed that he hasnt talked to me for three years. Idk lifes too short to be confused. i really just want to be done at ghs completely but no o got one more year. Altho next yr im not goin to miss meghannes lunch creations since im not going to have lunch next yr. Idk rite now its just a ton of mixed emotions rite now. But davies coming up today so im having a pretty good day :)

17 for a month, and nothings happened

2010-12-13T12:39:00.002-06:00

sooo.... i walk into ag today and im talkin 2 sarah and then hurless walks in and hes wearing the same color sweatshirt as me and he sits down and automatically takes off his sweathirt and hes wearin the same damn tshirt as me too. WTF!

otherwise today... dull. its a monday and its fucking freezing outside and i REALLY dont wanna go to work sooo... yea. lol.

the band concert yesterday was super fucking boring and all we did was mess around on hajos phone the whole time. yea. funny shit.

and then i reeeaaaaalllllyyyyy miss david but hes a half hr away and hes got finals all the this week so i cant rly talk 2 him when hes at school so it sucks.

and next week i have finals which sucks :(

but after next wed im free till jan 10th! :D

and shit. i 4got my work uniform at home. fml.

my first week being 17

2010-11-19T12:43:00.003-06:00

still no ag sales results. :P

getta go see david 2marrow, hes comin 2 see me 2nite at work.

deer season starts 2day.

im slowly getting my math assignments done.

dad mite be comin home 2day.

havent had 2 deal wit mom or seth all week. its been awesome.

NH is being a dick more then ever now. hes jealous.

bens back. my spanish grades happy bout that. lol

me and davids song(s)

Livin' Our Love Song - Jason Michael Carrol
Country Boy's World - Jason Aldean
You're the Love I Wanna Be In - Jason Aldean

hes my world. if i lost him idk what id do. i love him so much.

Pretty sure this should b our senior song. JASON ALDEAN - TATTOOS ON THIS TOWN

2010-10-29T12:50:00.003-05:00

There's still black marks on that county road,
where we drag raced our pick ups, and mustangs,
And weathered on the summer rain.
And to this day up on that overpass,
even underneath the new paint,
you can still see,
"Allie will you marry me?"

Take a ride, look around
There ain't no doubt

It sure left it's mark on us,
we sure left our mark on it,
We let the world know we were here,
with everything we did,
We laid alota memories down,
like tattoo's on this town.

There's still a rope burn on the old branch,
that hangs over the river,
I still got the scars,
From swinging out a little too far,
There ain't a corner of this hallowed ground,
that we ain't laughed or cried on,
it's where we loved,
Lived and learned alota stuff,
It's everything we're made of,

It sure left it's mark on us, we sure left our mark on it
We let the world know we were here, with everything we did
We laid alota memories down, like tattoo's on this town
Like tattoo's on this town

Everywhere, it's where we are
It gets me right, in my heart

It sure left it's mark on us,
we sure left our mark on it,
We let the world know we were here,
with everything we did,
We laid alota memories down,
But we'll always be hangin' round,
like tattoo's on this town,
Like tattoo's on this town.

Hello World - Lady A

2010-10-29T12:46:00.002-05:00

(this was my fav song at the concert for national convention this year. im glad i got to hear it.)

Traffic crawls, cell phone calls
Talk radio screams at me through my tinted window I see
A little girl, rust red minivan, she’s got chocolate on her face
Got little hands and she waves at me
Yeah, she smiles at me

Chorus
Well, hello world
How you been
Good to see you, my old friend
Sometimes I feel cold as steel
Broken like I’m never gonna heal
And I see a light, a little hope in a little girl
Hello world

Every day I drive by a little white church
It’s got these little white crosses
Like angels in the yard
Maybe I should stop on in, say a prayer
Maybe talk to God like he is there
Oh, I know he’s there
Yeah, I know he’s there

Well hello world
How you been
Good to see you, my old friend
Sometimes I feel as cold as steel
And broken like I’m never gonna heal
And I see a light, a little grace, a little faith unfurls
Well hello world

Sometimes I forget what living’s for
And I hear my life through my front door
And I breathe it in
Oh, I’m home again
And I see my wife
Little boy and little girl
Hello world
Hello world

Well the empty disappears
I remember why I’m here
Just surrender and believe
I fall down on my knees
Well hello world
Hello world
Hello world

i. am in. my third studyhall. of. the. day.

2010-10-25T14:13:00.002-05:00

to break the school code, which is an infringement of the 2nd amendment anyway, THIS IS FUCKING GAY!!!!!!!!!!! i dont need 2 SH, why am i in a 3rd? wtf! and for the record, i could be working rite now! or getting my check at least. :] but noooooo i have nothing to do. for the 2nd hr strait. fucking gay. so i busted out the ipod. i dont fuckin care if its against school policy., i love bending hte rules n breakin the law! lol. man i wish i was..... well....not here for sure, being in mizzou would be cool. being in MO with the boy would be amazing. but he used 2 swear he would never go there with me n my fam.... i wonder if hed go there with just me? :] man i miss him sooooo much. and hes not even mine 2 miss. it sucks, every time i get a chance somehtin happens and im either not there, have 2 go sumwhere, or chicken out. mostly, the latter of the 3, but still. i wish i could tell him, then maybe everything would be better. idk.

so saturday nite i got home from kelsies bout 10 pm and then i got on the computer for a bit so it was bout 1030ish when i got to the point that i wanted 2 chilln my rm so i went upstairs n i hear this noise, and it didnt register in my head what it was til i heard it a second time when i was headin back down stiars, cept this time it was closer. so i threw open the window to see wtf it was and IT WAS A FUCKING TRUCK . not just anyones truck, someone i know pretty damn well. just drivin through a field at 1030 at nite wiit no lights. what. the. fuck. who the hell does that? and then they threw on their lights to get on the rd then turned em off again to drive past my place. then they got the hell outte there and didnt come back. but im pretty sure i know who it was. and its pretty stupid if ur like creepin on my house cuz theres this thing called a phone, and if ya wanna talk 2 me then u can just call n be all like hey whats up? if its who i think it was, ill answer 4 u. doesnt matter what time.

and i just want u 2 know, im always here 4 u, whether u want me 2 b or not.

studyhall numbah dos

2010-10-25T13:39:00.003-05:00

soooo bored n SH...... time 4 a recap!

me + chad = over. done. finite. zip. zero. nill. none. gone.

me and the boy.... [the boy thats always been THE BOY, not the other pansys ive liked over the years but THE BOY, the one my friends insist i get back wit altho im way 2 chicken, ya THAT boy] ... well were, needless to say, well we make eye contact at least. thats more then last year. :] and hell return my calls when i need help. thats a plus. i just need 2 get sum guts and finally ask him.

thats gonna happen....... well need to read sum more josh shipp b4 it happens

g/w scrimmage 2010

2010-08-20T20:53:00.003-05:00

well everyone survived. i didnt see anybody melt in the rainy varsity game so its all good. hung wit lindsey, cassie, brittany, jon, ferbie, andy and a ton of 7th graders. it was crazy. and the 2 ppl i REALLY wanted 2 see couldnt make it and didnt want 2 go. :( o well. in 2 weeks theres teh 1st home game against chicago. and theres bound 2 b a few soccer games and tennis meets b4 then :] i cant wait to see what happens this year. hopefully its amazing. :] <3

1st day of jr year. :o

2010-08-17T18:02:00.002-05:00

weeeeeell. i love my 1st hr. and my 4th hr. and....6th hr. the rest.... meh. i do like getting out after 6th hr. can i quit band and keep my early release???? decisions are sooooo hard. :(

to liz - ill get the guts 2 talk 2 him sometime rlly soon. i promise

to n - well, i think 1st hr is gonna be fun :]

to the weather guy - LEARN TO PREDICT THE FUCKIN RAIN!!!!!

summer 2010

2010-08-14T18:12:00.002-05:00

JUNE; partied wit lauren & the crew [16!], worked my ass off, went to state convention [ferby now calls me hurless. great] went river rafting wit the officers, was in the fathers day parade, hung wit katie

JULY; went 2 minnesota 4 work and got treated like shit, quit my job, met 100+ awesome ag alumni members, hung wit jess, washed some trucks, took care of sum ducks, met some 20 kids from the baltic sea area, partied wit bmahl & crew [16!]

AUGUST; drove seth 2 band, partied at kelsis awesome luau [16!], started workin on horse judging stuff wit katie, started workin on the scrapbook, have almost died at tennis practice, NH is 17 now [geez hes old. jk], meghanne's 16th is 2marrow. hopefully i can go.

NO LIZ, i havent called him yet! :P

school on tuesday, cant wait 2 see whos im my classes ;]

2010-05-26T15:21:00.001-05:00

MW: so ur bf hurless.... KC: hes not my bf. Were not dating MW: well ur future husband hurless... KC: sure...

2010-05-25T14:50:00.002-05:00

2010-05-25T14:46:00.005-05:00

LM: i had a dream last nite. U were back in the office & nick was in the room & every 1 went 2 the computer lab & keener goes shes back there&he leaves. So then u come out & go come here & u and nick kiss and then u start dating again.

and i was like karla would so do something like that!

KC: i wish that would happen

2010-05-25T14:46:00.004-05:00

It Ain't Easy Bein' Me - Blake Shelton

2010-05-24T20:53:00.000-05:00

There ought to be a town out there,
Named for how I feel.
Yeah I could be the mayor down there,
And say welcome to Sorryville.
It won't be on a map nowhere,
You might say that it doesn't exist,
But if you make enough wrong turns
It'd be hard to miss.

There ought to be a bridge somewhere
They could dedicate to me.
I'd probably come to the ceremony
With a can of gasoline;
Walk on over to the other side
And there I'd light a match
And sit and stare through the smoke and the flames
Wonderin' how I'm ever gonna get back.

Why do I do the things I do?
Was I born this way? Am I a self-made fool?
I shoot the lights and curse the dark;
I need your love but I break your heart;
And I know the words that'll bring you back,
But I don't say nothin' as I watch you pack.
I had to work to be the jerk I've come to be;
It ain't easy bein' me.

Ought to be a side show act for freaks like me;
Yeah I could be the star of the show
With my name on the marquee.
In a room with a big red button that says "Do Not Touch,"
And twice a day I'd mash it down
And you could watch me self-destruct.

Why do I do the things I do?
Was I born this way? Am I a self-made fool?
I shoot the lights and curse the dark;
I need your love but I break your heart;
And I know the words that'll bring you back,
But I don't say nothin' as I watch you pack.
I had to work to be the jerk I've come to be;
It ain't easy bein' me.

quotes day! :]

2010-05-19T19:52:00.003-05:00

"Not all men are created equal, only the finest are involved in agriculture"

"It's hard bein' a cowboy. If a guy gets run over by a truck, his buddies feel sorry for him, but if a cowboy gets run over by a horse his buddies laugh"

"Some days ya just can't get it into second no matter how much ya double-clutch it"-Crazy Cooter

"its simple, its mind over matter. When your outta your mind, it don't matter"

"an apple a day will keep anyone away if you throw it hard enough" Steven Colbert

Luke: You ARE aware this road goes to Dry Creek?
Bo: I AM aware this road goes to Dry Creek.
Luke: You are aware there's no way to get OVER Dry Creek?
Bo: [Stepping down on the gas, grinning] I am aware there is ONE WAY to get over Dry Creek!
Luke: Oh, Lordy! We're gonna die!

Eminem - Not Afraid

2010-05-13T10:18:00.000-05:00

Geneseo FFA - Welcome

2010-05-10T20:40:00.000-05:00

Geneseo FFA - Welcome

Scotty Doesn't Know

2010-05-08T18:38:00.000-05:00

Gary Allan - Long Summer Days

2010-05-02T19:59:00.000-05:00

Up On the Ridge -- Dierks Bentley

2010-04-28T12:28:00.000-05:00

2010-04-26T10:25:00.000-05:00

interesting weekend so far. :)

2010-04-17T19:49:00.002-05:00

soooo. hang wit katie friday. at school. til 6. not rly supervised. altho nelson said he that NH still likes me he just doesnt want shit from everyone. which it is understandable. and he also said that a certain person i want so desperately to get in a car crash on the way 2 work can burn in h***. that was cool. so i obviously needed a ride home. cuz i dont have a job and im broke. again. so i called nick. he said he was going 2 johns. call dad half hr l8r. dad said nick just went by the house rite b4 i called.

so thx nick, for lying or being a chicken or hating me (& i still dunno why u do. if u do) and not giving me a ride home, woulda took ya 5 min 2 come 2 the HS &get me. o well. i dont hold it against ya.

but seriously, thanks for answering the first time i called and not hanging up on me. even tho u didnt give me a ride, it means something. to me it basically means u either dont know my # or u dont wish i was dead. :) dunno wut it means 2 u. yet.

soo horse judging 2day was rly fun even tho there were 6 ppl competing. i was basically in charge of holding the horses and rolling legs wraps but hey, it was doing something. better then being at home & listening 2 mom n dad bitch at each other. again.

and now im babysitting. as usual. and i gotta do chores still. o joy. :)

misguided monday

2010-04-12T20:01:00.002-05:00

go down 2 stahls room during 1st, stay in the office, work on stuff, getting ready 2 go, go in2 the room 2 get stahl 2 sign me bak, rite when i go in i hear it: "hey hurless, hurless" ...and it in that tone that u just know there talkin bout u. u know the kind, the one where rite when they say something, even tho they dont actually say it, it means 'hey look whos here'. i dont like that tone. amusing as it is, when u totally ignore it, and dont look at the ppl talking, as u casually make ur way across the room, get wut u need, and go back 2 where u came from, u cant help but wonder; why r they sayin that bout ME, rite NOW? i mean, its rite after ive been told by bout 5 ppl that hurless hates my guts and everytime i see him i get the "look". that look that just makes u feel like a piece of dirt and u wanna drop dead. yeah, that look. its just my favorite look outta all of them. and it just makes me feel WONDERFUL. all i have 2 say is wut did i do 2 deserve this? HE broke up wit ME. so why am i the one that has 2 get the bad end of the deal? why am i the one that feels like shit? just answer me one question - why?

ok seriously? #2

2010-04-10T18:51:00.002-05:00

this is sooooooo fucking GAY. ull talk 2 lindsey, SMILE at her, and wont even say a damn thin 2 me? wut am i, a fuckin piece of dirt? im so below u that u cant even say hi 2 me? wth? u r the ONLY one that treat me like that. and wut hav i done 2 u? absolutely nothin. nothing that i know of. if there is something PLEASE tell me. then maybe u can actually let me know why the hell u treat me this way cuz this is TOTAL bs. ur the one that broke up wit me. so why am i getting the shitty end of the deal? i dont hate u. u did wut u did. its in the PAST. let it stay in the past. its long gone for me.

2010-03-27T13:17:00.001-05:00

Im reading harry potter1. Theres not connection at all. Yet i cant help thinkin bout the boy....

happy dance

2010-03-12T12:22:00.002-06:00

THE 2010-2011 GENESEO FFA OFFICER TEAM

PRESIDENT: Trent Taber
VICE PRESIDENT: Lauren Lyman
SECRETARY: Hayley Abell
REPORTER: Karla Chrisop
TREASURER: Mark Snodgrass
SENTINEL: Landon Heaton
HISTORIAN: Jake Miller

this year is gonna be great. cant wait 2 see wut happens when everyone that was there finds out. :]

chem convo K&A&L

2010-03-03T20:14:00.003-06:00

A - "yea we had a pretty interesting convo at lunch 2day"
K - "bout wut?"
A - "not telling"
K - "why not?"
A - "cuz"
K- "cuz why? its about me?"
*A nods*
K - "tell me. if its bout me then tell me"
A - "we were talking about prom. we asked nick if he was gonna go and he said no. so we said he should take you next year."
*K puts head on desk*
A - "yea and john's gonna take hayley and keener's gonna take christina"
K - "wow...."

Mr.o - that was the bell. SSR. read.

*whole class reads*
*alarm beeps*

K - "hey adam. adam."
A - "yea"
k - "did nicks face get all red when you guys said that stuff?"
a - "yea. why?"
K - "i saw him after 5th and his...."
A - "....face was still red."
K - "yea.i was just wondering if that was why."
A - "yea."

L - "do u like him or something? you tlak about him all the time."
K - *smiles* "shut up."
A - "you still like him dont you?"
K - "shut up."
L - *gets up* "why dont you go out with him...again. you talk about him all the time. you gotta like him."
K - "cuz... idk"
A - "thank you for being on my side. they should date. cuz she likes nick & nick likes her."
L - "i know rite?"
K - "hey i never said i wasn't on your side. its just that..."
A - "... nick. we need to get him to want to go out wit you."
K - "yea we do. but have fun wit that."

mr.o - "ok if you havent finished the lab....."

---------------------------------
so A knows. & we kinda sorta have a plan. hey, maybe havin A on my side will make things.... ok.

:D

2010-02-25T17:23:00.000-06:00

so last nite he called me back ! :)

:) :) :) :) :) :) :D

thats all :)

long story short

2010-02-24T15:25:00.001-06:00

his truck got messed wit and we both got pissed, for different reasons, and 2day i know who did it & im gonna call him later, after he gets off of work. if he went to work....

wut the.....

2010-02-22T21:06:00.002-06:00

so 2days update from 7th hr..... A told me that N says im a stalker cuz i know where A lives. A only lives a mile away, a family friend farms the ground around his house, my dad did a job there for said family friend, AND N himself told me A lives there last year when he gave me a ride home from school while we were dating. shows how much he knows bout me and my "stalking".

rite now im wit court - why does he hate me so much?

ok seriously?

2010-02-21T17:40:00.002-06:00

heres the scene: saturday nite - 830pm, im sittin on the couch watching my fav TV show, and all of a sudden theres a really loud noise. guess wut that was? a certian neighbor's truck. it wasnt so bad the first time, but when he comes back 5min later and its even louder (i was amazed it could even happen), thats when it got pretty annoying.

and he says he dont like me & im crazy and im a bitch, etc.

SO WHY THE HELL IS HE "SHOWING OFF" IN FRONT OF MY HOUSE? answer me that. why would you show off to someone you hate? waste of time if you ask me.

and you call yourself a friend?

2010-02-20T10:28:00.002-06:00

so thanks to A giving me updates almost everyday, mainly when its good info, i now know wut N thinks of me. at least wut he says to his friends. - "do you think she still likes you? "no. why would i care anyway?" (TOTAL DENIAL! WTF) and then he apparantly said im a crazy bitch and a bunch of other stuff that A wouldnt tell me. which means its NOT GOOD. but ya know wut? if he wants to call me a bitch - ill show him one.

so.... now what? #2

2010-02-18T21:42:00.002-06:00

well after what seems like 50 calls, he finally called me back AND i answered. apparantly he doesnt have my number anymore. psh. like he could forget me? lol. so i ask him bout A & J... he says uh... i... dont like you anymore. but for some reason... prolly just wishful thinking, but he sounded kinda nervouse/ sad-ish/ lying/ idk i just got wishful thinking going on here i guess. :( o well.... theres still that cute red-head :)

pancake breakfast (valentines day 2010)

2010-02-15T10:34:00.003-06:00

so N was there. and lindsey came over sat so she came wit me. and me & lindsey were talking to jake and jake kept making fun of me & N cuz he swears N likes me & its kinda obvious i like him. lol. and me and N were pretty pink/red by the end of the day. lol. but during the day N would look at me and i was like !! :) so after the b-fast i called him & then took lindsey home & then got home & was watchin the race cuz if just started again and i fell asleep on the couch watchin TV and while i was asleep N called me bak and I MISSED IT! so mad @ myself. so i finished watching the race cuz there was only like 20 laps left and btw dale jr went from 15th to 10th in one lap and then from 10th to 2nd in two more to FINISH 2ND IN THE FIRST RACE OF THE SEASON! and he also led 4 laps. this season is gonna be good, i can feel it :) but after the race i called him back (@7pm) and he didnt call back :( guess i getta try again today.....maybe

so.... now what?

2010-02-11T18:56:00.000-06:00

"at lunch today landon started talking bout you and nick got really defensive and was like 'dont talk about her' and by the way me landon and keener all think that hurless still likes you."

:)

2010-02-05T22:37:00.001-06:00

yes i'm a dale jr fan. yes im super excited bout daytona qualifying &the bud shootout 2marrow. no i am not gonna stare at my TV counting down the hrs. yes i think that the only good thing bout valentines day is the DAYTONA 500!!! yes i will attempt to work @ the livestock competition. yes my truck is fixed &yes i am dr...ivin there, but NO i will not give anyone a ride. if ur going ill see ya there if not, ur loss...

2010-01-30T17:52:00.001-06:00

Does anyone know Wut sawyer tells kate before he kisses her and then jumps outta the helicopter? #Fb

2010-01-26T21:21:00.001-06:00

The fear of losing someone she loves is strong enough to change her mind... #Fb

the joys and discomforts of agricultural life

2010-01-25T20:23:00.002-06:00

so... SAE worknite..... it was interesting to say the least. the last person i wanted to be there was there. well, one of the last ppl. there are ones lower on the list then him, but not many.

saw the boy on the way in :) highlight of my day and i didnt even see him, just his truck. but even that makes me smile :) today was a pretty damn good day, even if i am runnin off about 2 hrs sleep. at least im gonna fall asleep thinkin happy thoughts bout the boy :)

2010-01-24T13:22:00.001-06:00

You cried for your friend not for yourself. Theres a big difference.

2010-01-22T21:31:00.001-06:00

Watchin spirit. Bestanamatedmovieever. :)

2010-01-18T21:06:00.001-06:00

OMG THE NEW SEASON OF 24 IS GONNA BE AWESOME!!! not that it wasnt already... :)

2010-01-10T22:13:00.001-06:00

music To the boy... All i ever wanted -chuck wicks

2010-01-10T19:54:00.001-06:00

Missing him way too much

2010-01-06T21:37:00.001-06:00

Thinkin bout him... But Wuts the use when hes pissed at me?

2010-01-06T19:15:00.003-06:00

Pranked the boy again. Then shy went and called him and bitched out as "jeremy my bf" and i called him to explain...Hes pissed at me and im not gonna keep tryin

2010-01-05T20:55:00.001-06:00

Pranked the boy 2day. It was priceless :) THANKS SHY!

THE week b4 christmas break

2009-12-18T20:12:00.002-06:00

lookin back, i happened to notice that i've been blogging for a year. wow.

THIS PAST WEEK has been, for lack of a better word, interesting. D's stopped talking to me, N has been sneaking glances, A and i have been talking, AW and i have been talking, BL and i are talking - as friends. and btw, Ben K is stalking me.

im almost failing chem, prolly the same wit math. ADD is kickin my butt rite now, and i really need to ride. theres a fresh layer of snow fallin rite now, hopefully 2marrow wont be too bad of conditions. either that or im driving somewhere.

my glasses broke TWICE this week, fixed em once wit super glue, and again wit the sotering gun today. still lobbying for contacts. dad says if i can get the snowmobile sold then he'll buy em for me. maybe he'll get the gas tank fixed too. :)

DOES ANYBODY NEED A SNOWMOBILE???????

Mash Game: Predict Your Future at eSPIN.com

2009-12-06T18:43:00.001-06:00



		I will marry nick.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in colorado in our fabulous Mansion.
		We will have 2 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a white 09 camarro coupe.
		I will spend my days as a lawyer, and live happily ever after.

today... (gary allan)

2009-11-30T20:53:00.001-06:00

Today, he told her that he loved her
Put a ring around her finger
And promised her forever, together.

Today, she smiled for all the pictures
And he was right there with her
Making all the memories without me
And it hurts to say this out loud
Looks like she's really gone now

Today, is the happiest day of her life
I should be happy for her today
So tell me why are these tears in my eyes?
I know i should be happy for her
But i've lost everything
I've lost everything i've ever wanted today

Today, i thought about the moment i could have said i loved her
And promised her forever together
Today, today it really hit me
That she don't really miss me
She's found a new beginning
And i'm wishing i had one more chance
God knows it's too late for that

Today, is the happiest day of her life
I should be happy for her today
So tell me why are these tears in my eyes?
I know i should be happy for her
But i've lost everything
I've lost everything i've ever wanted today

Today, is the happiest day of her life
I should be happy for her
But i've lost everything
I've lost everything i've ever wanted
Today, he told he that he loved her
Put a ring around her finger

2009-11-30T18:24:00.001-06:00

Well i talked to him today. Didnt really say that much... But did we ever?

2009-11-28T00:04:00.001-06:00

Do i wanna cry cuz we lost state? Or cuz i miss him so much? Or both?

2009-11-27T23:20:00.001-06:00

N GET TO PLAY! now he cant use the i sat on the bench excuse to quit! :) 2ND IN STATE but celebratin n gettin to play. Wish he would call me back. Prolly tired

and to state we go!

2009-11-23T19:49:00.002-06:00

the GHS football team did a great job this saturday in beating Richmond Burton in the class 4A semifinals with a score of 24-20. WE'RE GOING TO THE STATE FINALS THIS FRIDAY!!!!! :D hope my parents dont want me to do anything cuz im not going to. im gonna be watchin the game. :) pep ralley wed to send off the players 7th hr. NO CHEM! YES! :D plan test 2marrow. :P get outta PE tho. :) but on friday - im rly hopin N can play. got my fingers crossed! :)

~if you only knew how i believe in you <3

(btw idc bout D anymore. he can have the stupid bi freshies. didnt think the jr class could stoop that low but hey - life is FULL of surprises)

well this sucks

2009-11-15T16:17:00.002-06:00

D isnt talking to me and i have no clue y. C cant take a hint and LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! i didnt get my license. mom bought a guitar. class ring comes the 20th. ive got a cold. dad and seth are in MO. i just want my life back.

dale jr was just in a crash. and btw - GHS is in the FINAL 4.

so... do i just wait for the story book ending?

2009-11-08T11:02:00.002-06:00

so D and i hung out the whole day and i had so much fun, i didnt want the day to end. theres not many days that i can look back on and immediately smile. this one i can. :)
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section top shot= dan boggs
geneseo football is going to elite eight! :)

and its amazing, how one simple thing can make my world start spinning....

2009-11-05T17:08:00.002-06:00

D IS BACK!!!!!!!!!! :D saw him after 5th, said hey. then saw him @ his lkr after school and poked his shoulder & smiled but i was talking to sam so i didnt stop. i went to my lkr. so im trying to figure out my coat (cuz im stupid like that sumtimes. lol) and he came past me and poked me in my side. i just smiled. :)

bev wants me to come and watch sec trap wit her. i really wanna go, but dad wants to go to MO, even tho its freezin outside. i'd rather stay here and then he can go huntin and i can have fun :) enjoy my jobless freedom while it lasts, ya know? lol

just wishing it'll all be okay

2009-11-01T20:22:00.002-06:00

D is sick, the next playoff is @ kankakee SAT, so we loose the whole trap team... my phone is being gay, my truck wont decide if it hates me of loves me, theres gonna be alot of ruts and burnt rubber... thats all im sayin. tryin to decide if i should talk to N, still gotta make that cd 4 keener, forgot the english homework, and dale jr actually had a decent finish @ dega 2day. parli-pro monday, crops tues, and i swear im gonna punch my brother...

and now... annoying grandma :P

waiting, hoping, wishing, wanting it to go my way

2009-10-27T18:27:00.002-05:00

national convention - was amazing. nuff said

today - pretty normal day. still getting used to a pe class where i know everyone. i hate it. after school... bus was... shall we say... crazy. at home.... chores and then riding. drove the guy stealin dad huntin spot out :) and then on the way back... floorin it just letting things go, i get to theend of the drive and i see head lights so im stoppin and theyre slowing down cuz its me and im in a brite red jacket. so im stopped and i see its N, all i do is smile. i always knew we'd meet up like that. :) adn he either knew i wasnt gonna kill myself or saw my smile cuz ya know he had to show off a bit ;) but who cares ya know? if he says something bout it at school 2 me 2marrow then thats cool. cant wait to go riding again. filled he tank so we should be good for a while :D (maybe go riding wit someone?)

indiana here i come! :)

2009-10-20T12:29:00.001-05:00

wating for 6th hour to get over wit so i can start my journey to indy! sooooo cant wait toget to the 82nd national FFA convention! :D

fall trap shoot & homecoming 09

2009-10-18T10:43:00.003-05:00

well i hung out wit dan and miles and beverly all day. talked to nick a lil bit. pretty good day overall.

then i went to kristens and got ready 4 the dance.... boring

dinner wit drew, adam, catlin, & kristen @ rubinos

the dance. lets just say wow. k? wow.

nuff said.

october FFA meeting

2009-10-15T20:20:00.002-05:00

well... POA.... its really really boring.... N was at the mtg....we didnt talk.... wish i woulda got a ride from him. instead im sitttin here waitin 4 mom to get off of work. at least i get to drive home. GH parli-pro practice 2marrow night wit J.... dunno how that gonna go.... still wanna deck him.... :/

HOMECOMING PARADE TOMARROW!!!!!!!!!!! im on the tennis float btw. o i gotta read that note from coach still.... ooops. lol.

CONGRATS TO PAUL FOR BECOMING A LORD!!!!!! hes awesome. :)

pissed. off.

2009-10-14T19:47:00.001-05:00

fuckin asshole broke up wit me!

never doing that again

2009-10-13T11:37:00.002-05:00

let just say... it wasnt nothin bad... but we got caught. so stahls prolly gonna watch me like a hawk for like the rest of the year...

and then hurley had his scrimmage game cuz he never plays in the actual games so he was leavin rite when were were gettin done wit practice and he was leaving... i really wanted to throw my keys at his truck.

o btw. i got a truck :)

and jons settin up a track for the last MX race of the year. i wish he had his phone... :(

LP game

2009-10-10T18:20:00.003-05:00

THE REFS DIDNT KNOW SHIT!!!!!!!!!! they made the worst calls ever and flagged us WAY too many times. i was so pissed. i stood out there for 4 fucking hours, freezing my ass off, to see it end on a call like that? o hell no. and jon wasnt there so that was :( dan was there and we talked. chantel was there but she was all OMG im single let me flirt wit everyone! so i hung wit ollie and beeg and megan. i apparantly getting drug to homecoming AGAIN this year. the thing is i told A i wasnt gonna go and A doesnt know im going out wit J.... yea it SUX!!! on a better note, its funny to watch N support the team. he punches the air and jumps alot. lol. me? well i yell at the top of my lungs. which made my voice pretty hoarse today but hey, it was worth it. :) we better have a HC game or im gonna be SUPER mad. who cares if its freezing, it HC for gods sake. we are going to have a game. stupid ottawa.

i wish J had his phone... :/

best song ever 10/9/09

2009-10-09T16:24:00.002-05:00

Song: 8 Second Ride
Artist: Jake Owen

C'mon!
I said hey girl what's your name?
Haven't I seen you before?
I recognized them dark green eyes when you walked through the door.
Are you alone or are you with someone?
She said a matter of fact I'm not
So I took her hand that's when it all began and we headed towards the parking lot.

And she said hey boy, do you mind takin' me home tonight?
'Cause I ain't ever seen a country boy with tires on his truck this high
I said climb on up but hunny watch the cup where I'll be spitting my dip tonight.
And hold on tight 'cause its gonna be wilder than any 8 second ride!

We went riding round rocking to the sound of "Country Boy Can Survive."
And I knew then that she was my kind of girl 'cause she was singing every single line
Then she slid on over put my hand on her shoulder
And I asked her what she wanted to do.
She said it dont matter where we go just as long as I'm riding with you.

And she said hey boy, do you mind takin' me home tonight?
'Cause I ain't ever seen a country boy with tires on his truck this high.
I said climb on up but watch the cup where I'll be spitting my dip tonight.
And hold on tight 'cause it's gonna be wilder than any 8 second ride!

So we headed out to old Tobacco Road
Put the tailgate down and we made love
She said a true country boys hard to find
But I found one wilder than any 8 second ride.

And she said hey boy, do you mind takin' me home tonight?
'Cause I aint never seen a country boy with tires on his truck this high.
I said climb on up but watch the cup where I'll be spitting my dip tonight.
And hold on tight 'cause its gonna be wilder than any 8 second ride!
Yeah hold on tight 'cause its gonna be wilder than any 8 second ride!

pre- LP game.

2009-10-09T13:49:00.002-05:00

its really cold and wet outside. idk if jons gonna be there cuz he dont have his phone. chantel is comin off of breakup mode. so im so making her cheer up. :) dunno if alex is going.

my back hip an shoulder are killin me. stupid crash arthritis :P think i popped a rib outta place too. DAD GET UR ASS HOME SO I CAN BE ABLE TO MOVE 2MARROW!!!!!!!!!

wut came from today

2009-10-08T18:03:00.001-05:00

1. make sure i got my chem homework done!
2. half my ag class hates me. and im fine wit it.
3. i gots a bf! :)
4. 5day weekend away from said bf :(

GH PARLI PRO MONDAY! cant wait

parli-pro

2009-10-07T21:53:00.002-05:00

not only do i get to own at the varsity level of parli-pro this year... im now the honorary secretary for the JV (aka greenhand) parli-pro team. SO I AM SO GONNA OWN ON BOTH LEVELS AND GET LIKE 8 AMARDS THIS YEAR AND ITS GONNA BE AWESOME AND I SO TOTALLY CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS! :)

no... to drive home and think bout him all night... cant wait to see what 2marrow brings... :)

speechless...

2009-10-07T21:51:00.000-05:00

we kissed.... <3

streator pt 2

2009-09-27T17:34:00.003-05:00

so im hanging wit alex like all nite and everything and yellin at lauren and liz and kelsi for singin miley cyrus. and then ollie shows up and is super hyper. and chantel is runnin around..... and then its halftime and alex goes to get food. and i stayed in the bleachers and talked to ollie and allie came bak up adn i talked to her and then i went to find chantel adn talk to her cuz alex was tlakin to other ppl and i was bored. so i found her and she was all like see i got keys! to john and miles sooooo i was super bored so i stole tehm and was liek no ya dont. so she chased after me and it was fun. :) then i went and found ben for keener (he owes me. lol) and then me and chantel went and talked to chris and allie and ollie. then alex came over and talked to me and chantel adn allie would not shut up and kept teasin me.... actually she reminded me alot of my cousins.... (jake, jason, josh, nate - we rly need to meet up @ gma linda's ASAP) but anyway i hung out wit him for like til the end of the game and me and chantel walked to the gate and i waited for mom and got to drive home :) it was a pretty great nite. besides the hurley thing....

ANYWAY!

drove to cordova and back 2day. then sold 100 bales of hay..... did nothin but work 2day :P. stupid rain.

streator home game

2009-09-26T21:11:00.001-05:00

well... hanging wit chantel. we get to the game. i see lauren at the top and we're down talkin to chantels mom so i go up the stairs to go talk to lauren and the crew. and someone. idk who yells HEY HURLESS IS RITE OVER HERE!!!! @ me. as im goin up the stairs. and the teams down where the seniors go and theyre watchng the sophmores. so anyway, i go up and sit next to lauren and i look at the game and whos lookin @ me? hurley. so i tlak to lauren and the rest of the srew for a lil bit adn then go down to chantel whos still talkin to her mom. so we go talk to miles and we're standing by the cars in teh parkin lot and the football players start comin down to get suited up. so her comes hurley and im still talkin to miles wit chantel and everythin cuz alex wasnt there yet and hurley like saw me or sumthin and went the looooong way around. wuts that tell ya? and who told who to move on last may? ya thats rite. him. so can somebody plz explain wut happened last nite?

anywho...

so a few min into the varsity game im tellin allie the WHOLE story bout hurley. including history. and alex gets there. and im freezing by now cuz im in a tshirt and been there since 530. but me and alex hung out and ill tel ya wut happened in teh 2nd half of the game 2marrow. rents say i gotta go to sleep :P

the best days of my life (in no order)

2009-09-22T21:00:00.003-05:00

1. well the day i was born. cuz guess wut - this year will be the 16th! and i get to drive my myself. finally!
2. any day in preschool. PM ladders w/ menendez & carter was the shit. :)
3. DGS comp 08. this was the event of all events in MB
4. any home football game. they're just awesome
5. uh.... when i started talking to alex and brennan. happened like in the same week.
they've helped me through ALOT of tough times.you guys are the best and i have no clue wut id do witout u. no joke.
6. the nite during thanksgiving break 08 that chantel came over and we went riding for hours. it was amazing. and them matt and kyle and nick came over..... :/then they left.... and then we were callin nick and kyle... and matt kept stealin phones....it was crazy. and chantel HAD to steal my phone and talk to nick for like an hour... bout how i liked him....and yea.... that leads to
7. the nite nick asked me out. who knew it would actually happen?
8. any nite hanging wit alex. he just has a way to make me happy no matter wuts happened during the day. hes always happy and always smiling and i have NEVER seen him sad. if i could be even a lil like him, that would be a VERY good thing.
9. the day i didnt jump on the cheerleaders for being snobby lil preps. im finally controling my anger :)
10. asking alex out and him saying no. this was a good thing cuz lookin back i did not need a relationship then.
11. making the list of ways to kill seth h cuz he was moving out next door to me. this was compiled wit alex and my fav one would be to either light him on fire or steal all the fire/CO2 detectors and then put a propane leak in his house so when they go to make dinner - his house go BOOM! (i have just now come to notice that i watch crime TV shows WAY too much to figure this stuff out this easily)
12. getting the guts to ask alex to homecoming (aka 2nite) i was surprised that i actually typed out the message and hit send.... him saying "sure" to me was just icing on the cake. :)

*keep in mind most of these things have happened in the last year. ifi really went through my life and picked the best days, there would be hundreds. most of them envolving guys, most of those guys being my cousins. and most of those memories having to do wit something MX related. in Mo. lol. jjust be glad i didnt go through all that. trust me.

song that describes my life- 9/21/09

2009-09-21T19:52:00.001-05:00

Artist: Jason Aldean
Song: Love Was Easy
Album: Wide Open

It seems like money,
Is always on our minds these days,
Make more spend more,
Worry how the bills will get paid,
Oh it wasn't that long ago,
But it seems so far away,
When we didn't have a damn thing,
But we were happy,

And love was easy,
Just laying on a river bank all night counting the stars,
Love was easy,
As that feeling we found in the back seat of my car,
Even in the dark,
Love was easy,
When we didn't make it so hard,

Can you tell me,
The last time we really laughed,
The last time we had a moment,
When we hated that the moment passed,
Here we are down the road,
Standing here looking back,
Seeing what we used to have,
Is what we're missing,

When love was easy,
Just laying on a river bank all night counting the stars,
Love was easy,
As that feeling we found in the back seat of my car,
Even in the dark,
Love was easy,
When we didn't make it so hard,

Maybe that's how it is,
Ah maybe that's how it goes,
But all I know,

Is love was easy,
Just laying on a river bank all night counting the stars,
Love was easy,
As that feeling we found in the back seat of my car,
Even in the dark,
Love was easy,
When we didn't make it so hard,
When we didn't make it so hard,
Love was easy baby yeah,
When we didn't make it so hard

Playlists

2009-09-21T18:28:00.001-05:00

countryfan2694's
eSPIN Playlist

	Best song to slow dance to: Far Away by Nickelback
	Best song to fast dance to: Just Dance by Lady Gaga
	Best song to fall in love to: Relentless by Jason Aldean
	Best breakup song: Not Meant To Be by Theory Of A Deadman
	Best song to make out to: Shine by Collective Soul

song that describes my life- 9/5/09

2009-09-05T22:31:00.001-05:00

Artist: Love and Theft
Song: World Wide Open
Album: World Wide Open

I need to move, I need to breathe
Shake the things that pull on me
Holding me down, slowing me down
I need to run, I need to fight
Let go of the things that I am holding onto
Maybe I need you

Just open up my eyes so I can see
It's always been there right in front of me

Roads...which one will I take?
There's a world wide open
This world wide open
Marks...which one will I make?
There's a world wide open
This world wide open

Everyday's an open page
A brand new start, a fresh clean slate
Given to me
Now it's up to me
Buy my best and lose my worst
Try to heal the things I've hurt
I need you, I know I need you

Make my mistakes and leave them in the past
Make the most of every chance I have

Roads...which one will I take?
There's a world wide open
This world wide open
Marks...which one will I make?
There's a world wide open
This world wide open

And when you grab it by the handles and dream
As its spilling over me
As its spilling over me...

Roads...which one will I take?
There's a world wide open
This world wide open
Marks...which one will I make?
There's a world wide open
This world wide open

Roads...which one will I take?
There's a world wide open
This world wide open
Marks...which one will I make?
There's a world wide open
This world wide open

singles = amazing

2009-09-04T19:48:00.002-05:00

OMG last nites meet.... fucking AWESOME! first ever singles match - a WIN. wait no..... let's make that a SHUT OUT! o ya thats rite i WON 6-0. great way to start out my singles career. so totally cant wait til wed/ thurs. away meets. i get to play. home meet tues. dunno if i play or not. hmmmm.... maybe hang wit alex the whole time? knowing coach ill prolly play doubles. hopefully. i just wanna play more and i wanna hang wit alex more and just have a good time. and i wanna go to national convention and get a class ring. thats my plan for this fall.

o and have some really great practices for parli-pro. lets show these lil greenhands how its done. :) and me and lindsey are gonna design a YOU KNOW YOU'RE A GENESEO FFA MEMBER IF.... tshirt. so totally cant wait! :D

this past week has been amazing. sigh

2009-09-02T21:08:00.002-05:00

so the tennis meet last nite... i got alex to come and watch me and it woulda been amazing if chantel wasnt so totally flirting wit him the whole time i was playin. which pissed me off. and my leg killed and i was messing up.... it wasnt the greatest match. but we won two games. in a 8 game pro set. :) can twait til i whoop kewanee's butt 2marrow. maybe alex can go? if he'd txt me back then id ask him.... but course hes got soccer and thinks hes got a game 2marrow.... i wish i could go watch him.... :/ i am so gonna find a way to do that. maybe hell have one the day(s) i got dentist appts. or b4 i go to LTS. how long does the soccer season last anyway? need to ask ben bout that. lol.

but anyway according to wut chantel asked alex while i was playing.... he just likes me as a friend and/or he doesnt want a gf rite now. alex told me that he didnt want a gf when he didnt rly know me last may and i asked him.. course i had told him EVERYTHING bout me and nick... complete wit breakup and conflicts after the break up... i think he was smart in saying no actually. then at least. o and chantel says that alex doesnt know if hes going to homecoming. hell i dont even know if im goin to homecoming! i mean its like.... a month and a half away! do you know how much happens in a month and a half in my life???? ALOT. ALOT alot. in the fall.... too much. ffa... tennis....school.... football games.... possibly soccer games... WAAAAY too much stuff goin on. but yet im still have time...... to constantly think... about just 3 things..... ffa national convention, tennis, and (of course) him. wuts a girl to do? especially wit only 2 months and 10 days left to go til i can get my license.

i wish there was a home game this friday.... sigh

2009-08-31T19:21:00.002-05:00

to put last friday nite simply - i hung out wit chantel.... then ollie was tailin me cuz beeg was comin.....chantel went to talk to waldo and vanished..... me and ollie watched the 2nd half of the soph game waiting for beeg..... beeg came rite b4 the varsity game started... alex came down and i went wit him.... we hung out and talked and watched the game until like 10 mins til i had to leave.... brennan was there and i saw him and we talked til my mom called while alex was eatin his nachos.....then i had to go..... it was great... until the leaving part.....cant wait til next home game :)

school week one

2009-08-27T15:28:00.002-05:00

english wit sum idiots
pe wit keener (btw too!)
SH - boring!
a2 - kiss is amazing
A lunch wit ana & lindsey
history wit luke. mr harrington is awesome too
AS- its stahleos class. wut more can i say?
QC chem - i think i actually get it. :)

lockers rite next to brandan :/

alex has the same lunch wit me. his lockers....somewhere. lol. havent tlaked to him all year! ah! nick has c lunch again. hahahaha. sucker :P saw him a couple times this week. not to metion his stupid truck woke me up this AM. this is gonna be a looong 2 months, 15days.

NOVEMBER HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

btw going to LTS on sept 23.... ch mtg on the 15? maybe going to ntnl convention ? (i hope i hope i hope i hope) TOBY KETIH IS GONNA BE THE CONCERT!!!!!! OMG I LOVE HIS MUSIC!!!!!!!! plz say that the officers invite me to go! PLEASE!

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LAST WEEK OF SUMMER (aka tennis - week TWO!)

2009-08-22T21:05:00.002-05:00

okay so....monday.... tennis practice. ugh. o. wait. its raining! NO PRACTICE!!!!! NO RUNNING THE HILL! WOO!

tuesday..... practice

wednesday.... practice

thurs....rain again... afternoon practice NO SPRINTS!

friday.... practice. got uniforms! :)

firday nite.... green white scrimmage games startin @ 515pm. had a blast hangin wit kelsie, kate, carolina, seth & ollie. made fun of kelsie alot. its wut she gets for stealin half my pretzel. lol. hurley is just plain stupid - standing on the sideline lookin like mr. grumpy gills - its his own fault he sucks at wut he does. he doesnt try. and everyone know it.

saturday.... tennis pics @ HS gym - 1030am.... practice afterward (i now ride wit sean to practice. stupid late bday. grrr.) then rite after practice HAYLEE'S pool party!. sooo much fun! rly cute kittens. giant slip n slide (no bleeding @ all!) rly warm pool.... great food. wit my friends and fellow tennis players.... so much fun and just great way to end the summer. cant wait til next year. itll be even better! :)

**when the game is over, no matter win or lose, can you look back and say you left it all on the 'field'? if you can answer yes to that, if doesnt matter the outcome. you've already won**

tennis day 4 - saturday practice

2009-08-15T14:19:00.002-05:00

weeeeellll. it was WAY to early 2 start practice. im glad we've got pics @ 1030 next week, even tho that means we're practicing til noon. :/ luckily for me we only ran the hill once. twice and i was going to DIE. stupid ankle was fine until after we did waterfalls and the it started to sweel and i was focusing on not hurting it further so my tennis game was off. and not to mention 2day was SUPER hot out. and we were in the sun the whole time. so not cool. nothin more to do until monday morning @ 9am :) well....there is the work i have to do here at home.... stupid SAE book. lets hope i dont go to school looking like a cutter.... :/

tennis day 3 :/

2009-08-14T12:15:00.000-05:00

well my ankle hurt alot this AM so i told coach and didnt run. worked rly hard on my form and hitting. getting alot better @ it :) im rly glad i didnt have to run the hill. they had to run it twice. and another good thing 2day - i was either soooo tired or he didnt drive by as fast cuz hurley didnt wake me up 2day wit his truck :) but anyway.....yea. and then driving home was kinda crazy cuz i went through the country and grandma was kinda flippin out cuz she didnt know where she was. lol. o well. got practice 2marrow AM 9-11 @ richmond. come watch if you want! :D

tennis day2 o.O

2009-08-13T12:29:00.000-05:00

the schedual for 2day:
2 laps around the block (YOU CALL THAT A "WARM UP"?!?!?) then stretching then sucides (MORE RUNNING??????) then mini tennis 2 warm up (again plz define "warm up")

then hitting wit the machine (our group is known as 'the newbies') then 5poiont and serving wit coach barks.

THEN once around teh block again AND THE HILL! i say i should so totally get out of PE for this. i mean come on. thats like a mile. EVERY DAY!

oh and btw...

2009-08-12T12:18:00.001-05:00

today just so happens to be august 12th. which, besides the first day of sports practices (including football) is nicks birthday.

so....

instead of having fun @ his house and chillin wit friends enjoying his sweet 16 and his license.....HE GETS TO GO TO FOOTBALL PRACTICE! which is sooooo totally worse than tennis practice. mind you he doesnt have to run richmond hill, but hes got to be in ALL his football gear.... in the sun.....wit all this humidity.... lol sux to be him :) im done for the day! got practice sat morning tho.... :( o well my bday is gonna have nothing going on and no heat and HUNTIN SEASON!!!! woo! so totally cant wait! :D

tennis practice day 1.

2009-08-12T11:54:00.000-05:00

ran around the block twice. almost threw out my left knee. practiced hittin. did great. had fun. knee felt better. then had to run the fabulous richmond hill. knee still hurts. :( wearin my brace 2marrow. trying to tuff it out but i dont think ill be able too much longer. ill be ready for pe tho i guess. :)

IL FFA SUMMER LEADERSHIP CAMP

2009-08-06T10:46:00.000-05:00

what happens @ camp stays @ camp. thats all i can say. :) but i WILL reveal that i had SOOOO much fun and met so many great ppl and tried alot of new things. it was amazing and i wish i could go back! I LOVE CAMP!

IL FFA SUMMER LEADERSHIP CAMP

2009-08-05T12:20:00.002-05:00

met some guys. got their numbers. made some friends. got their numbers. danced a bit. didnt fail canoeing. got pretty wet. wet soccer balls hurt worse than regular ones, especially when applied to the head. archery is amazing. even when the bow sucks. open mic nite = i didnt do it. lol.

he can't quit her - GARY ALLAN

2009-07-14T13:47:00.000-05:00

She was cool, she was hot, she was smokin' a lot
At the end of the bar
She had more than one too many buttons undone
On that blouse she wore
Starin' too long at her lost in that Skynyrd song
Was his first mistake
And when she shot him that, "Boy you dont want none of this" look
It was way too late

She's like a needle to a junky, she's like whiskey to a drunk
she's like poker to a gambler, she's like a bullet in a gun
She's in his blood. he can't explain the rush
When he gets with her
Might be the death of him, but he's addicted, man
He can't quit her

Well, she'd come to his house and he'd tell her
She belonged just with him and no one else
She'd get up and she'd get dressed, take five hundred
No less, and then leave again
He said, "Baby, I'll take care of you, can't stand the thought
Of sharin' you, with them other guys."
She laughed and said, "Well, maybe you shouldnt call me no more then baby."
And he didn't, that first night

She's like a needle to a junky, she's like whiskey to a drunk
she's like poker to a gambler, she's like a bullet in a gun
She's in his blood, he can't explain the rush
When he gets with her
Might be the death of him, but he's addicted, man
He can't quit her

She's in his blood, he cant explain the rush
When he gets with her
Might be the death of him, but he's addicted, man
He can't quit her

She was cool, she was hot, she was walkin' cross the parkin lot
With some other guy
Well, he was jealous, he was jonsin'
And he wound up on the wrong end of a fourty-five

Chantel is now the depantsed queen of her pool :)

2009-06-29T12:45:00.000-05:00

RECAP OF CHANTELS BDAY:

omg it was sooo much fun. no drama wit the ppl or anything. we all just clicked. hailey is so cool., there is no way she is 12. and then kaylin.... shes just awesome.

ok so rite when we got there we went rite to the pool. it was crazy. splash bombs and "floaties"... and everyone was getting dunked. and we wouldnt let chantel out of the pool until it was time for dinner. and then presents - which included a video of her trying to open a duct tape wrapped present :)

then it was downstairs to blast "oldies"

playing ping pong to the backstreet boys and n*sync its pretty crzy. especially while wearing a floatie. lol. adn then there was the giant bubbles.... *sigh* i cant wait til MY party. as long as the 4wheelers fixed by then. maybe chantel can bring hers... itll be awesome, not matter wut happens :)

more supernatural pix :)

2009-06-26T10:03:00.000-05:00

its official. i'm an addict :)

2009-06-25T11:56:00.000-05:00

to a tv show of all things. lol. SUPERNATURAL! and its on tonite! :D

love hurts? no. a baseball to the sholder hurts.

2009-06-19T13:59:00.000-05:00

ok so how do i spend my summer nights? by drilling my brother in baseball.

so thats wut i was doing the other night - cooling down by playing catch wit seth. (we had just finished hitting for an hour each) and seth, being a retard, was throwing it closer and closer to the flower bed, and i was like 8-10 ft away from said target every time he threw it over there, so it required some sprint & dive maneuvers. which are pretty exausting, but still fun.

i usually have complete concentration, especially when its dead silent outside, and 99.9% of the time, it is. but it just so happened that the .01% of noise came when i was about 15 ft away from seths usual target, because i had just ditched my hat on the front steps. as i was running toward the ball, determined to catch it, who should drive by, but hurless, in his annoying loud truck. concentration blown away in the breeze, i still tried to catch it, and failed. i was close tho. it came as a direct hit in the center of my right collar bone. right as hurless was passing me. i quickly picked it up, not paying attention to the screaming pain of my shoulder, and threw the ball back to seth, knowing that if i kept it by me, i would not have the control to stop myself from throwing the ball at the boy who had just ruined what was going to be on the greatest catches of my career.

so needless to say, i've got a pretty nice bruise on my shoulder, and a gruge against all the loud trucks that are starting to infest my neighborhood

well aint this summer great

2009-06-17T13:40:00.000-05:00

so far this summer - shoulders, neck, and right arm are stiff and sore cuz i stacked 265 square bales the other day. wasnt rly ready for that.

got rly bored last nite and just randomly started calling ppl. thought i'd call hurley and see wut hes been up to. idk if he knew he answered his phone or wut, but he did answer it and dint say anything and me being me i was gonna kinda yell at him cuz i was all like wtf, but instead i just hung up. i'm getting better @ controling my anger. but controling my anger has been giving me alot more headaches. hmmm.....

maybe i should not control my anger in the summer so my head isnt in pain all the time? idk. o well.

gotta go do stupid laundry now. ttyl

state convention recap :D

2009-06-12T10:16:00.000-05:00

state convention......

2000+ IL FFA members in the prairie state convention center (Springfield) for 6 sessions, complete wit keynote presentations, delegate sessions, retiring addresses from the state 08-09 major state officers, speeches from the candidates for 09-10, voting for the 09-10 officers, CLAY ZWILLING's retiring address, the installation of the section presidents, and that touching moment when the 08-09 major state officers hung up their blue corduroy jackets, and the 4 guys and a girl team (annie, andrew, ben, austin, and clay) were replaced by the 4 girls and a guy team (adam, kiersten, ellen, caroline, and amie).

the party part....

the dance - yea...i don't dance. but i did have a convo struck up wit me and we did end the night wit a slow dance....it ended up to be an ok night
the Lincoln museum - not that great when its ur 2nd time in a year
knight's action park - pretty fun. got a pretty bad sunburn tho :S
the pizza machine - omg that pizza was amazing, and i got to sign the wall too. maybe next year i can go and sign the wall again.

omg so totally cant wait!

2009-06-08T11:50:00.000-05:00

state convention starts 2marrow and i so totally cant wait! who knows wuts gonna happen? i've been txting kelsey bout it since like saturday. lol. so totally cant wait! :D

IN OTHER NEWS: not much. lol. SCHOOLS OUT!!!!! loving the freedom. and its only the 3rd day! lol. i am now a sophmore, passed all my classes wit at least a C. happy bout that. now its time for me to relax and enjoy the decent weather, while trying to get more songs for my iPod, cuz 2marrow the day starts @ 430am and ends at god only knows wut time cuz of the dance thats gonna be fucking awesome. i have a feeling that its gonna be a whut happens @ state stays @ state. and im totally fine wit that one. :D

ill b bak on friday to tell yall bout wut happens! wut i can tell @ least. *wink* lol

Red Light - David Nail

2009-06-02T20:42:00.000-05:00

so this is how it ends
this is where it all goes down
this is what I don't love you feels like

It aint the middle of the night
and it aint even raining outside
It aint exactly what i had in mind.
For goodbye

at a redlight in the sunshine
on a sunday nothing to say
don't even try

some are coming home
some are leaving town
while my worlds crashing down
on a sunday in the sunshine at a red light

I thought she was going to say
something about that couple kissing
accrossing the street
our something about this beautiful day

but she just looked me in the eye
said its over didnt try to lie or pick a fight
I might have seen it
coming that way

but at a redlight in the sunshine
on a sunday nothing to say
don't even try

some are coming home
some are leaving town
while my worlds crashing down
on a sunday in the sunshine at a red light

theres a mama
calming down a little baby
in the backseat in front of me

theres an old man dressed
in his sunday best
just waiting on green
but i cant see getting past

this redlight in the sunshine
on a sunday nothing to say
don't even try

some are coming home
some are leaving town
while my worlds crashing down
on a sunday in the sunshine at a red light

at a redlight in the sunshine
on a sunday nothing to say
don't even try

some are coming home
some are leaving town
while my worlds crashing down
on a sunday in the sunshine at a red light

at a red light
at a red light
at a red light

wish you were here....

2009-05-30T23:15:00.000-05:00

the one thing i want the most rite now...... strangely enough....to talk to nick...just to see wuts up. like kyle does to me....i just want to call him and see how WI is....but i doubt he'd answer....and even if he did he'd cut it short. be really busy or sumthin.... :(

almost made it a whole day wit out talking to alex....finally broke down bout an hour ago.....i really. really wish i could see him rite now....

this summer is gonna be hell. making sure i get a hug from him on the last day of school. who really knows that they're dead certain they'll be bak in teh fall.... hell alot of things could happen. he already knows i like him....i wounder if he'd think i was weird? huh. well my brains in hyperdrive....randomly woke up @ 430 this am and couldnt get bak 2 sleep. stayed in bed til 11 anyways. lol. and its 1130 now.... been up for 19 hrs.....cant take it anymore....gotta sleep.....maybe have sum dreams for once? idk.....

wut. a. day. collapses on bed wit a HUGE sigh

2009-05-29T21:43:00.000-05:00

well... this day has had its ups and downs.....laura has decided to be retarded like her sister (jk ily court! lol) and play the flute....ugh...the traitor....

then nick was in a hurry this morning and 4got his phone AND his wallet @ home...so first thing on the bus this morning....(im already listening to my iPod btw).....i get poked in the side and look over and its nick...i was like okaaaaay (in my mind)....and hes like can i use ur phone for like 5 minutes?... i was like ok....(not thinkin anything of it).... then i was like wait a minute (again. in my mind) .... wheres urs?...and he goes thats wut im calling bout....i was like nice.....lol (then & now)

so i listen to his phone call and he gets ahold of his dad...and im not gonna go in2 detail bout wut he said & everything....but i was laughin a bit.... (lol rite now just thinkin bout it) and he gives me bak my phone & is like god i feel like a dumbass....i was just like wow.... (lol)

then lindsey is like mad/sad/ idk wut cuz she left to go on vacation 2day and we wont see her until after summer - IF she stays in atkinson. :(

nicks now either still on his way to WI or there....idk which but i hope he has fun....since i certainly wont....stuck here in stupid IL for the whole damn weekend....prolly gonna be tryin 2 find out WTF is wrong wit the 4wheeler.... working mostly. :(

but after school....the usual routine...get out of math....go 2 my lkr.... get my shit.... go down the hall....stop @ alex's lkr & tlak to him. :D so i was walkin down the hall wit him and everything....and i had 2 get my trumpet from the band room and he kinda acted like he was gonna go the short way to the buses but then he kept walking wit me all the way down to the band room and he didnt get his trombone or anything....and he stayed by me....and then walked wit me outside too....

and this isnt the 1st time this has happened....well.....not exactly this....but pretty close.....

god i cant wait to see wut happens next..... just let it be good and have a sumwut happy ending

my life: as run (unfortunately) by my parents.

11 days left

17 for a month, and nothings happened

my first week being 17

Pretty sure this should b our senior song. JASON ALDEAN - TATTOOS ON THIS TOWN

Hello World - Lady A

i. am in. my third studyhall. of. the. day.

studyhall numbah dos

g/w scrimmage 2010

1st day of jr year. :o

summer 2010

It Ain't Easy Bein' Me - Blake Shelton

quotes day! :]

Eminem - Not Afraid

Geneseo FFA - Welcome

Scotty Doesn't Know

Gary Allan - Long Summer Days

Up On the Ridge -- Dierks Bentley

interesting weekend so far. :)

misguided monday

ok seriously? #2

*happy dance*

chem convo K&A&L

:D

long story short

wut the.....

ok seriously?

and you call yourself a friend?

so.... now what? #2

pancake breakfast (valentines day 2010)

so.... now what?

:)

the joys and discomforts of agricultural life

THE week b4 christmas break

Mash Game: Predict Your Future at eSPIN.com

today... (gary allan)

and to state we go!

well this sucks

so... do i just wait for the story book ending?

and its amazing, how one simple thing can make my world start spinning....

just wishing it'll all be okay

waiting, hoping, wishing, wanting it to go my way

indiana here i come! :)

fall trap shoot & homecoming 09

october FFA meeting

pissed. off.

never doing that again

LP game

best song ever 10/9/09

pre- LP game.

wut came from today

parli-pro

speechless...

streator pt 2

streator home game

the best days of my life (in no order)

song that describes my life- 9/21/09

Playlists

song that describes my life- 9/5/09

singles = amazing

this past week has been amazing. *sigh*

i wish there was a home game this friday.... *sigh*

school week one

LAST WEEK OF SUMMER (aka tennis - week TWO!)

tennis day 4 - saturday practice

tennis day 3 :/

tennis day2 o.O

oh and btw...

tennis practice day 1.

IL FFA SUMMER LEADERSHIP CAMP

IL FFA SUMMER LEADERSHIP CAMP

he can't quit her - GARY ALLAN

Chantel is now the depantsed queen of her pool :)

more supernatural pix :)

its official. i'm an addict :)

love hurts? no. a baseball to the sholder hurts.

well aint this summer great

state convention recap :D

omg so totally cant wait!

Red Light - David Nail

happy dance

this past week has been amazing. sigh

i wish there was a home game this friday.... sigh

wut. a. day. collapses on bed wit a HUGE sigh